And the Queen has spoken...

Your eyes are still like a windless day
And when you look in my direction
You see right through me
Cutting like ice to a statue of love
Doves or swans suit you best
So forever seemed long before
But not since I met you
Now its not long enough
And you always knew
When you looked though me
When you were out to sea with you reveries
You sailed along and left me
Come back to me
My sailor king
Come back to this world we knew
Stranded at sea with your windless eyes
And the only one that suffers is me.

The darkness smiles upon us at times in our lives
When the sun is shining bright.
I thought you were the kind that would love me regardless
But I thought wrong
You let us go with out a thought
Just as I let time slip by
And I was free from you
Free from misery
But miserable all the same
I wanted to hold you
And feel you squeeze me tight
And I thought you felt the same
I know now that love can be shared
And so quickly taken away
If I had held tighter
Gave it a week more
Or told you that I loved you
Would the results be the same?
I let go too quickly
Thought it was the best for everybody
But wanted to have you near me
And now you are lying by another
Two days from the last
How when two days pass
Are you already over
The blue that I haven’t recovered from
Well thank you for enlightening me
On indifference and misery
I once played a victim
And when I thought that role was over
I was playing the same character
I was playing me
I was playing you
I was just playing…
All the same.

I am my worst enemy.
I fail in all areas I hope to succeed.
I create havoc in my life, in my daily routines
Just to make life more interesting.
I sit and blame the world for my unhappiness
But it is really me that has created all this mess
I don’t know how to become my friend
I only wish and pray for an end
An end to all this pain I cause myself
An end to all the confusion I have
I wish I could make it all go away
But I don’t know how to stop myself
I drink, I’m drunk, then dumb
I sit and waste myself for fun
I have no identity anymore
I had hoped in life for more
I realize now that I can stop this
But I don’t know the right switch
Just sit here mindlessly letting it go
Rewinding images of the past
Reminding me that I am the biggest ass
That I have ever met to date
So if you love me
Do yourself a favor
And replace it with hate.